Thursday, October 26, 2006
SERIOUSLY, i hate it when people think that im smart. not smart as in im clever.. but smart as in i get my grades through luck or chance or high EQ or whatever, like i totally dont deserve my grades..or that the only reason i can do well is because im 'smart'.
WHAT SHIT.
yess, i may noot be half as much hardworking as much people but U bloody dont know how much i slog for the subjects i want to score. and the only reason why u think im not that hardworking is probably because i refuse to slog for subjects im not interested in. NOT IM SLACK.
so bloody hell stop saying im smart..unless u really mean it.. or i swear i will stuff your bloody mouth into the dustbin and let it rot with the cockroaches inside. WHAT THE HELL.
u dun see my effort doesnt mean i dont work, U BLOODY ASS. its high time u give me some credits.
and stop using this excuse to convince urself of not doing just as well as the 'SLACK' me. f*** off man.
11:36 PM muacksbisous :) Y
Monday, October 23, 2006
choice choices are like white. it bugs u for ur whole life, yet u never seem to realise its impact on you. at one point or another, you make choices. you always do, even at this minute, to sleep early or continue surfing the net is a CHOICE. but i guess, whats important is to make a choice that you never should regret on it, its afterall your own choice.
a fren pointed out something to me recently, and it struck me like .... i dunno what its like.ha ha.
anyway..heres it. i was pondering on what i should eat for lunch that day, and she asked me what i was doing, its kinda dumb but obviously i was thinking on what to eat. and then she told me i was wasting time for she said, i already made my choice long ago. indeed, to think of it, i already knew what i wanted to eat.
i guess humans like us simply enjoy the priviledges of choosin, or having choices. i mean, i dunno for you, but being able to choose is like a sort of enormous power conferred to me, like i noe i am in CONTROL. sounds crazy, but its true, at least for me. i mean think about it. even when you know you will end up in a certain nus fac, you still want to choose, for me, i pondered over several faculties, different possibilities, yet i still ended up wherever i am now. Right from the start, i have already chosen arts fac, i have already made my choice! i guess i simply enjoy the process of being able to consider the different places i could be in, but the bottom line is i
chose-d even before i started choosing.
well, what im trying to say is, everybody knows what they want deep down within, you always knew that you wanted a bicycle, and you always knew that you wanted to study medicine, or you always knew that you wanted to visit the zoo. the point is, you knew, and choosing is like a process that you come to
justify your own choice, to tell yourself that you are on the right track, diminishing every other choices with all the cons that you can ever think of, just to convince yourself that you are right.
So, anyone who is out their facing a big choice or whatsoever, face your choice, and dont get lost in the process of choosing, dont stray away from what you truly want, ignore the social stigmas, ignore others perception, its your choice, its not theirs. look within you, YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WANT, MAKE THE CHOICE, and dont regret on it.
10:13 PM muacksbisous :) Y
Saturday, October 21, 2006
yes, i haven been updating for ages, partly because i was too LAZY. and sooooooooo many things happen recently. anyway heres some of the things..
Firstly, NUSWS da capo finally ended, and it was GREAT and FUN. lols. to think im back in band AGAIN. what the hell. ha ha.
went cheese prata with the AC ppl who came to support, and it was surprisingly a nice gathering, l o ls. and theres supposed to be more nicer photos but GECK! pls send them to me asap.
and then, down the week, me and the gurls went to catch world trade centre which turns out to be a major disappointment. to think sam pon-ed tutorial for this, aye aye aye.
then came all the results for midterm which was quite fantastic, considering the amount of effort i put in.
following this, met up with Slamuryl Phitrol last week, which was like lots of fun- like the old times, AND yes, we went eating again, but that night i had a good talk with say and nana till like 2? yups, 1st outing w/o chong, n cheryl didnt make it, but oh well, heres some shots..
yea, and then everybody rushes for term papers, projects, n after days days of drills, me and sam finally finish the 4700 worded SSA project like yesterday. GOSH, im so relieved. so i had a mini celebration and met up with fye and ilyas with sam for fish and co at the new IMM, talks lotsa crap and bitchings and eatings and laughings, and photo-ings! yet again, just like the good old days.
stolen from fye. oops.
These few weeks have been like a major RUSH, today marks the end of it but soon enough, another round of mugging will commence, which im so not looking forward to. LOtsa of catch-ups with different people, lotsa meaningful talks, despite the cramped social and school life, i actually feel alive, like im finally living for the first time, indeed.
Lots of thoughts are running through my mind now, but cant seem to get any of them down at the moment. will update again once i organised them, so do keep a lookout!
2:21 PM muacksbisous :) Y
Saturday, October 07, 2006
im just damn freaking pissed about the weather. PISSED!
12:58 AM muacksbisous :) Y
Thursday, October 05, 2006
FOod !!!
ppl deem it as the greatest luxury of life, but to me, its merely a mode of survival.
To eat good food is lucky for me, but food that taste terrible.. i always say, its like paying to buy shit. SHIT!
food that goes into my body comes out like the next moment.its like i feel i absorbed nothing, nothing in the food i eat goes exactly into my body. ironically, u see the food.. its translated or somehow evoluted to become that layer of oily stuff you find under your skin.its funny.its funny how i think vegetables is non edible, funny how i think eating is a waste of time, funny how i dislike eating.
YET. i look towards eating. everyday-meal-times are like my life directions, i look forward to lunch in d morning, then dinner in the afternoon, snacks at night, and then breakfast again. and the whole cycle repeats. without food, i cant get by life. as i said.i deemed it as a mode of survival. and i actually do enjoy it.
12:29 AM muacksbisous :) Y
