Wednesday, March 19, 2008
im really honestly glad school term is ending soon...yay and ive realised how detached from school i am this sem, busy with work and all. of course the random stuffs. moods been uplifting , perhaps my bad thoughts have learned how to maneuver out of the system automatically, which is GOOD news.. since i can so sense war nearing. soon i'll be in war with myself, and score in the finals.. (er..) okay thats a goal, its the first step to everything :)

and this is not mine. i really love this tattoo though, if i ever get one, this aint such a bad idea. though it really does hurts there, despite the fats as pain absorber.
a big thing is coming up. *winks
10:28 PM muacksbisous :) Y
Monday, March 17, 2008
ME for
Malicious
Envy.
I can't help it,
I can't help but compare,
I can't help but envy.
This gush of anger in my chest, suppressed terribly.
hate it.
its time i do something about this."Thou shalt not covet thy neighbour’s house; neither shalt thou desire his wife, nor his servant, nor his handmaid, nor his ox, nor his ass, nor any thing that is his."
8:11 PM muacksbisous :) Y
Sunday, March 09, 2008
So i got my IPod Nano like finally.. putting the camera on hold first cause the one i really want is SO EX.. Sony T300.. omg.. i dont know if its worth it.. and then i caught the leap years with chng.. and ITS nice you know.. though my bias against local movies still stays..the movie is so sweet and really nice.. kinda reminds you theres something else besides REALITY :)
owells.. on the side note.. went for AC alumni band concert today after we stock up some donuts for the band peeps at Raffles place.. and no.. its not donut factory. its some new donut called J.co recommended by matin.. and matin is right.. its nice..haha.. THOUGH we didnt get to eat our CHESSE ones in the end. so irritating..
Reverie - ACJC Alumni Band

The remnants of dunearn clique
this dunearn clique has always been like a body, and you know we may be doing our own things, living our own life but at the end of the day, when we get together, we are still a body.. we still talk fun, we still gossip like hell, and things will always be the same like ever before.. perhaps it was the things we went through in band, in class, in school, or was it the trips we went for together, or may it be the simple fact that we grew through the most horrendous period of one's life (the teenage years) together.. these somethings will always be the one link that we have in common, and nothing in the future will ever diminish this link..and i've know it, i just wasn't assured. i just want to say i so totally love these people :)

and THATS 5d conducting
as sentimental as i am, i was close to tearing when 5d was conducting the Japanese Graffiti piece..firstly, this piece was rather well played i thought.. and secondly, i cant believe HOW much we've grown! from the small boy in dunearn to the conductor now on stage, 5d's gestures have changed so much and he have like his own style of conducting already you know.. guess everybodys been turning 21 is making me feel sad that the past has now been even more past.. i felt seriously proud of him, its like seeing a part of me up on stage :) i was really really really touched.beyond words..
so while i was sitting up there listening to the band, ive realised that it really doesnt matter to me if the songs were nice, if the playing was good, or if the band was in-tuned, it is really the way it reminds me of great feelings i had.. the butterflies you feel in your stomach when the concert is about to start, the desire to say "damn!" when you miss your high note, the feeling of wanting to shout out at the climax of the song, and the proud you experience when you stand up to accept your applause at the end of the song... those feelings are so hard to forget.. and everytime i go to a concert, i remember those feelings.. NOTHING else in life by far have given me these feelings.nothing.
and this is such a heartwarming feeling which i think only the band people will know. playing in band is like being in one family, there may be quarrels, disputes, unhappiness here and there but then again, at the end of the day, you feel elated to see everyone you know, be it your old-time enemy, or the weird kid you refuse to talk to last time, i just felt so happy and blissed to see everyone's faces in the theatre just now.its like all the grudges are gone and you just talk, like you're talking to someone you know from ages ago, which is true actually..
well i think growing up is definitely a great thing, but growing with your friends is even better than great, even though not everyone is always in sight, i just feel great to see all my friends happy and moving on.. this is one of the rare days i feel so happy, and contented with whatever i have now. and so, i hope its like this everyday :)
just by knowing you're are fine, i know i got my simple joy
12:00 AM muacksbisous :) Y
Sunday, March 02, 2008
im still so pissed off with this stupid gay guy friend.. SOCIAL LOAFING, he says im SOCIAL loafing!! I TAKE PRIDE IN MY SCHOOL WORK OKAY!.. i so hate this project group.. they dont bother to tell me whats going on even after i missed a meeting with a reasonable reason - i sprained my back! and its not LIKE I DIDNT ASK! im SUPER pissed off.. actually really angry.. really really really really angry.. damn these selfish bastards...
on the side note, lin's 21st was great.. :)
this is the only one i have for now.. rest is with cherylteo :)
Overall, thought the party was great.. everybody could talk among themselves, food was great..drinks were great.. company was even better ironically.. cheryl terence roy mz matin and me were quite a good mix in talking about serious stuffs.. we talked way into the night before cabbing home.. most importantly, i thought saylin enjoyed himself.. though we didnt really get to talk to him.. lucky we came early enough to chat a little... in anyway, glad this boy is finally becoming a MAN, and hope he likes our prezzies :)
we're missing sam and nana though :( would have been better.
lifes still bad people. i see a crisis coming.. hopefully it doesnt consist of me failing in my upcoming tests.. i wonder why lifes so bad now.. sigh sigh sigh
11:13 PM muacksbisous :) Y