Tuesday, May 29, 2007
if not us, who? if not now, when?
10:54 PM muacksbisous :) Y
Saturday, May 26, 2007
alumni pracs are always interesting, diff groups of ppl come and go everyprac, new faces old faces, but its always nice to see them come and go, you noe, like it just remind you of the old days, and like them, it comes and goes.
my my my, age have indeed caught up with us, whether you like it or not, i dun even have the strength to go for a midnight movie after alumni prac with genevive, hah! oh well, it will come, i guess..
anywayss, something i haven mentioned, did went for night safari training as a show presenter on tuesday, which unfortunately, by wednesday, im no longer their worker, yesss, i gave it up.
its like this, i didnt really apply for this job because i wanted it, its more because i wanted to do something that most people ard me think i couldnt do, for instance, this. i mean im really kinda sick of everyone thinking that little of my capability, and limiting myself to the familiar grounds, i do not want to be just-like-that. call it adding-a-little-colors-to-my-boring-life if you want, or call it a-quest-for-self-realisation if its even appropriate, but i just wanted to do that thing at that point of time, yet reality proves itself once again, i m indeed not as capable as i make myself out to be.
i dunno if its the passion im lacking, or the desire i do not have, or simply, my motive right from the start wasnt even correct, i chose to gave up the job and conveniently push the blame onto the night shift i was allocated to.
yes i am that useless.
i seek comfort in once again MCDONALDS shaker fries, and my fav bubble green tea.
10:33 AM muacksbisous :) Y
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
its hard not to notice the increased consumption of energy boost drinks by me over the past weeks, and just a few moments ago, i gulped down the all-time-fav RELLBULL (silver) in a mere few seconds.
and according to some, REDBULLs a (g u y) drink,
which i totally diagree,
since minority female fans are indeed ard me, for instance, leemz,
and we totally adoreee the silver ones!
well, despite my obvious intention to keep it down to ONE per mth,
i think i had 5 in 2 weeks, which is bad according to my mum's chinese sinseh,
TCM is the thing now alright! haha
and so i concluded that, i have indeed been expanding too much energy these few weeks,
being exceptionally energetic,
planning more-than-usual outings
doing more exercises,
and spending spending spending,
the "exhuast-ment"
is finally coming
down
on
me.
w e d o h a v e l i mi te d e n e r gy .. ..
(which i see no point in proving it to you at all and hell knows why im doing it)
and so i strongly recommend REDBULL, for its scientifically proven to
- increases performance
- increases concentration and reaction speed
- improves vigilance
- stimulates metabolism
-most imptly, boost your limited energy
PLUS, ladies they even have the sugarfree ones!
3:00 PM muacksbisous :) Y
Saturday, May 19, 2007
icycle.icycle.icycle-d
yesss...AGAIN, i no e (exclaimed)!
im so loving my healthy lifestyle
squash-ing next week if all works out.
retarded i noe
but im too exhausted to care
OK, tmls PICNIC! its on its on its on!
oh oh oh, i tried SUBWAY 4 the 1st time in my life - not too bad (lol, minus the vege of cos)
and i managed to HUNT down HAJI lane and ARAB street w/o a cab with jill
aint we great? lol
kays. i need rest, and my face is burning like hell, the sun really IS strong.
i can and i will remain un-moved
for i noe its forbidden
you
get lost
11:46 PM muacksbisous :) Y
oh ooh ooh, days w/o exams and homework can be quite NICE really.
ive done almost everything on the list i planned for holidays b4 exams, amazingly in 2 weeks.
ive..
cycled
badminton-ed
had tea
played bridge
mahjong-ed
alumni band
shoppingSSS
movie
spend money (ALOT)
oh and picnic (pending 4 coming sunday)
which makes you wonder.. what else is there left to do??
funny aint it? lifes just like that. all in preparation for that final moment - death.
alright something a little more happy, i watched a movie on SCV today for the 82738164th time, but its still nice. woooo, you shld really checkeditout someday HA.
.tom hanks rocks.
and O M G, im damn sad, VIVIAN- ITS TOO LATE!!!
there goes my grasshopper concert, found ONE kaki last minute but CANNOT MAKE IT.
ITS LIKE TML NIGHT LAH
farewell my grasshopper
U stop laughing kay, at my old school idol. i love them. so does vivian.
oh oh oh , and i just realised its the French FEST!
aint it a cause for celebration??!!
BON WEEK everyone!
12:53 AM muacksbisous :) Y
Thursday, May 17, 2007
i think.. being deprived of my laptop is BAD BAD BAD (sent for repair). cause im like updating everything at one time when i have the chance to finally do it when my computer is available from anybody and everybody in my house. anyway this is long overdue-d, and supposed to be under 10 may. BUT who cares.
haha
as ive already mentioned, mahjong-ed with JC gang on 10 may and its gosh-ly F U N
although i was super jinxed and bad luck ALL THE WAY
even till when we played bridge.
still, it was a fun day, nicely rounded up with dinner at essential brews and
chilling out at wala-wala.
and i am not ashamed to say that,
i once felt that this gang will never be as important to me as some others,
or that this gang is kinda superficial,
or even that we just cant fit each other nicely,
now..
IM LOVING THEM MORE AND MORE
slamuryl-phitrol
(oh and that hole over there bytheway is un-coincidently for chong-u's face, ha ha)
12:49 AM muacksbisous :) Y
CLASSIC man.
GO GO no. 1's too happy for god-knows what reason
but such is true happiness, isnt it??
anyway, i
officially
tea-ed with the GOGO team like finally since long long long long TIME ago, i mean seriously we have been so deprived.. ha ha small peek to the stupid things we do..
SERIOUSLY, im not contented enough.
i guess, looking at the past doesnt make things better, learning to let go and appreciate the friends i have now are MORE important.
still.. i cant help but feel a bit sore.. S O R E
12:21 AM muacksbisous :) Y
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
humans always chooses the easy way out, well, at least theres minimum risks, higher chances of happiness, and probably less problems. BUT such a life inevitably makes all humans lose some courage.
COURAGE to do the unneccessary-s or to try the impossible-s.
its easy to say step out of your comfort zone, but its never easy for me or at least i believe for anyone to do it.
some say.. committment and courage are like twin brothers, when theres committment, theres always courage..
i remembered my sec.3 chinese oral which i mentioned that seeking death is an act of courage, but today, i feel otherwise.. to stay on and commit to solving the problems you have, and commit to face your loved ones, are what i feel are the
REAL COURAGE. afterall, not everyone has the courage to accept help, or love..
the simple act of being ready to commit on something already requires a hell lot of a courage doesnt it??
am i ready to commit? and do i have the courage to tell myself "i will" ???
11:59 PM muacksbisous :) Y
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
I WANT TO GO GRASSHOPPER's CONCERT!
BUT
I HAVE NO MONEY NOR COMPANY . ..
and i better not ache tml after today's badminton's session with THE "go-go" TEAM.
12:28 AM muacksbisous :) Y
Saturday, May 12, 2007
i dont think i can handle rejection SERIOUSLY.
im so angry right now, and suffocated, its like someone is squeezing my heart SO HARD. I HATE THIS.
maybe my lifes been to smooth sailing, you know, like no one ever doubted my capability, and i seem to have a great placing in everyone's heart, and SHIT, i guess they were wrong huh.
getting "rejected" is the last thing on my mind, and i didnt noe it hurts so much. suddenly, i feel this inner calling to want to shout to everyone and say "i can!"
of course i can, im not gonna start doubting myself too. im not. im not. i will not. yesss i will not.
sucks. my self-esteem just got shattered, and all i got to do now, is to tell myself, I REALLY CAN.
what all other humans do.. (self-hypnotising) or what some may call, self-fulfilling prophecy.
sigh, i cant handle rejections, and i cant handle myself either..
4:13 PM muacksbisous :) Y
Thursday, May 10, 2007
AND I FORGOT TO MENTION I HAVE A MAHJONG SESSION LATERS!
tai tai life... i NOE! ahha
12:24 PM muacksbisous :) Y
GOSH. SHOPPINGS GREAT. if you have the money.
DEEP SHIT. im real happy i bought stuffs but summing the TOTALS ive spent. WHOOSH. i better go bang the wall.
think ive spent at least 600 bucks. in not even a week. holidays real bad. being jobless is REAL BAD too. oh someone save me..!
and did i mention im SO tempted to get this GORGEOUS bag, which is like what $125! and this GORGEOUS GORGEOUS sliky off-shoulder top that cost also $125. SHIT.
and if i do buy it unless convince me not to. i would have spent $850! thats almost a months pay!
and its not even a lot of things i bought, its just their pure nature of being so EXPENSIVE. how can i start liking cheap stuffs beyond their price??
12:08 PM muacksbisous :) Y
Monday, May 07, 2007
DEATH;TO DIE
a term we've always taken for granted, and it so happen that its just one of the littlest things in life that we seem to silently agree on.
yet the point here is we SEEM to agree on, but do we?
yes, for most people, dying has something to do with heaven and hell, but to agree on this wide definition for death, are we to fault others for their own alternative definition of death??
was watching TV and saw how a girl with a slightly low IQ was asked this simple question in court, about whether she understood where her dead father was? and what was the meaning of her father dying.
she said, "i know i wont be able to see my dad again, because he went to a faraway place."
yes, people would start questioning her capability of making sound judgements and her ability to be a court witness due to her unusual answer, but something struck me a while later.
just because her answer is unusual, is it wrong??
i mean, we dont even know whats hell and whats heaven, wheres there and whos there, yet we say that we are right. because its something we chose to believe in, because thats what majority of the people believe in, just because we assume that humans are usually right, we get the simple math equation of majority = being right.
BUT, think, the girl just chose to believe in something we dont, who are we to fault her? and say shes wrong? and assume that her low IQ has given her the inability to understand death? who really knows death anyway?
yet the main point here is not death, but rather, whats right and whats not.
yes, majority is right, and minority is wrong, thats how we are, but really, think of its implications. ITS A WHOLE NEW concept out there.
its too random
11:51 PM muacksbisous :) Y
Friday, May 04, 2007
10:06 PM muacksbisous :) Y
retarded i noe
.tom hanks rocks.
farewell my grasshopper
CLASSIC man.