i dont think i can handle rejection SERIOUSLY.
im so angry right now, and suffocated, its like someone is squeezing my heart SO HARD. I HATE THIS.
maybe my lifes been to smooth sailing, you know, like no one ever doubted my capability, and i seem to have a great placing in everyone's heart, and SHIT, i guess they were wrong huh.
getting "rejected" is the last thing on my mind, and i didnt noe it hurts so much. suddenly, i feel this inner calling to want to shout to everyone and say "i can!"
of course i can, im not gonna start doubting myself too. im not. im not. i will not. yesss i will not.
sucks. my self-esteem just got shattered, and all i got to do now, is to tell myself, I REALLY CAN.
what all other humans do.. (self-hypnotising) or what some may call, self-fulfilling prophecy.
sigh, i cant handle rejections, and i cant handle myself either..
