and so i had my torturous 4hr break today, sucks totally. was hanging out with my pervertic french buddy as well as her malay gang at "the dungeon", and it was quite an experience i shld say. if you do not know, "the dungeon" is this place in arts where all the smokers gather. and so i think u get the picture, spending 4 hrs in the "haze" isnt exactly how i forsee it to be, nonetheless, "the dungeon" really surprises you :)
some girl or guy u noticed in some classes or lectures suddenly pops up, and the next thing u noe, she belongs to the smoky gang, hell, all of the sudden, everyone is a smoker. everyone you think arent suddenly ARE. ha! surprise surprise! nevertheless, u kinda notice how close knitted "the dungeon" gang people are, i mean some of them really are just total strangers who just hooked up because of having such a common hobby, and mine mine, they do really have a great time hanging around, doing nothing, and of course, smoking.
obviously, i stayed with the malay gang among the crowd, considering the obvious fact that i stood out like a sore thumb, 1 year ago, i would never have thought i could survive in such a combination, and hell, look how i fit it. i listened to how these people crap about their rowdy lives, laughing at how these people cynically view issues that may have been viewed otherwise by the common people, issues such as menstruation, sex, being gays, being lesbians, being Bi-s, blah blah blah. issues which in my pt of view, are constantly in everyone's minds, except most people dont express it as freely as how this gang does - and i actually find it rather amusing and super hilarious. the way this gang view such issues really are appalling enough, yet you'll seem to envy their lack of self-restriction, and even their heck-care-ness of the society's expectations. "the dungeon" is indeed like a whole new world itself. half an hour is all you need to bring that hidden part of u out, to foolishly fool ard with them, speak in total freedom, laugh as loudly as u want, i mean, anyone who saw me there would have thought that wasnt me! hah! think
again.not that i celebrate such total reckless behaviour, but i do think that it serves as a healthy escape from a world full of societal expectations, laws, and blah blah blah. i mean once in a while, letting that never-ever exposed part of you out isnt such a bad idea afterall, i do not see how long term suppressing your emotions, your raging hormones, or restricting your language can help make u a better person either. i mean we should just all shout "Yes, we are horny!" and if you by now, are having the idea of how disgusting a person i am now, YOU, should just jump down like immediately, i mean its innate, cmon, hormones are supposed rage when they rage, if not, how else are we supposed to mate, and carry on the line. unless you really are the person who looks forward to world destruction, stop acting demure and innocent, like you've never ever had the impulse to peek at horny stuffs, or have queer-y ideas about those-shall-not-be-named-thoughts.
technically, speaking about sex freely doesnt exactly make you a bad person, teaching each other how to smoke isnt exactly the worse hobby ever, these people like u and me, just happen to have a different hobby , different discussion topic, a different something, that just also happens to be one that the society condemns, does that hence, distinguish them from us? perhaps.
but perhaps we are just a bunch of soul-less people succumbing to meeting the sometimes unreasonable society's rules, fooled into thinking we are living the right way, when maybe, just maybe, they are actually the ones who knew the true meaning of living - despite maybe
ironicallydying of lung cancer
.
But who would then dispute the very fact that life itself, is an irony.
