im super pissed with myself right now.
First, i scared myself with my self-generated-complicated-squeezed notes i did for cognitive psych midterm that gave me a MERE 4 marks out of 10.
Then, i received news about the mean for Health Psych lap report and class participation points (which is reeeeally bad news i tell you).
A whole lot of realisation followed and i was made aware of the never-been-clearer feelings towards PSYCHOLOGY.
i detest it.
no subject is worse to score than psych!
theres SO MUCH competition, SO MUCH smarty pants, SO MUCH materials to know, SO MUCH to be expected, SO MUCH to do, SO MUCH to read. worse and worse, everythings new.
its really either
1) im genuinely stupid
2) ive grown stupid-ier
3) ive forgotten how to memorise
4) my brain shrank
5) ive never been lazier
OR WHAT, YOU TELL ME!
i swear, im much more hardworking than millions out there yet i suck at it.
I S U C K
seriously, why did i ever chose this major to torture myself, and compete with insane-madness lastly driving myself up the bloody-crazy-wall.
i cant seek solace anywhere, i cant get consoled by anyone, i dont know how to face myself,
im scared to fail.
im losing my best-friend
