so i got my new job confirmed today, which is to be a Research Assistant, and administering some language tests on some kindergarten kids nearby, thing is.. im quite apprehensive about it.. i dunno cause you see, im gonna be ponning my cosmetics and perfumes lectures COMPLETEly if im doing this job thingy since the only slots i can afford is b4 those lectures and it ends as late as early the lecture would start.. so im pretty worried about not attending lectures.. BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY, im so scared i cant handle the kindergarten teachers.. the kids.. and the tests, oh gosh, they are super urber confusing.. i mean seriously confusing.. and im going in alone tml, which is EVEN MORE SCARY.. mans.. courage courage. courage.. i need it. like right now :( and i really miss everybody, i haven seen many ppl for quite a while.. i so hate this semester.
i feel really low now, as in depression kinda low.. the struggling is making me feel so hateful of everything.. and i dont wanna cry, since it doesnt make anything better.. but i feel so i dunno sad maybe..and i need to talk to somebody before i you know go into coma.. and see i cant even put my thoughts out straight in words.. im so distraught i guess. i hate being alive now.
