this other day, at the same long road i wait for my SUPERR crowded 151 to head for french class, there was no bus. so i cabbed. BUT, i had company:) y0ou know i know this guy, mat, however its spelled.. he is like a total HYBRID of ilyas + matin. his diva-ish, his tone, his actions, his zest, his everything is like ilyas plus matin.. PERFECT. except - he's a total full gear BACKPACKER! he goes backpacking like every semester! like omg lah... i didnt realise i noe such ppl.. im like SUPPEEERRR envious.. he went like borneo, laos, myanmar, indo etc. and the last he went china and vietnam for 1 month for a freaking $1.1 K only lah! hes the MAN man.. im like so inspired by him and I ALSO WANT TO GO BACKPACKING! hes going india and philippines next, its so ohmygod. ANYONE? LETS GO BACKPACKING! so i suggested to him to set up his own backpackers club in NUS so i can proudly be a member muahaha.. great time talking to him lah. and hence, i miss my dunearn people (sobssobs) we haven been talking for aeons, so im having this secret idea of pulling this dunearn outing these days..muahaha.
anyways..i think im losing it..you see, theres something about this sadness thingy that really attracts me, so when my social life is like low on the grounds.. i slowly get sucked into this sadness space and completely zone out for days or weeks.and without my friends, lovely weird but funny cute friends from everywhere (regardless of your importance), i will eventually dwell in this space and go missing.. i haven seen ALL my uni friends for a LONG time.. okay 2 weeks, because i dont know since when. i started learning to pon lectures without feeling guilty.. plus lonely thursday till 8pm.. i can not talk for 6 hours straight and not feel weird anymore.. and probably the only friend im supposedly exposed to is urber idiotic atikk during french.. but shes been ponning like madness also.. SO, basically, im socially deprived, i dunno who to talk to, i dunno who to eat with, i stay at home to sleep, i act silly with myself, i laugh at myself, i eat bread and read notes by myself, i take bus by myself, i do everything BY MYSELF.. OPRAAAAHHHHHH, savvveeee meeeee!
SO i decided to hype up my social life, stop ponning lectures, start meeting decent people to talk to, stop listening to the depression shit during clinical psych lectures.. and be a socially better person, i also swear that i will not complain of insufficient time alone ANYMORE.
EVERYBODY --- Happy
V Day!
anyways i have a secret plan (and i'm not telling you!)
