and so i figured out that if i can write this down, it means that i've come to accept that my laptop had been stolen.

and so yarh and yup, my laptop had been stolen on that horrible thursday.
that horrible thursday after my horrible neuropsych final paper.
period.

nonetheless, despite such horrible happenings,
im really glad something good came out of it (hopefully)

and so i wanna thank whoever was there witnessing this horrible incident in my life.
thank you cyrus, for acting as nonchalant as you can be regarding me losing my horrible laptop.
and thank you amily for letting me be myself for that moment, crying my eyeballs out as much as i want and preventing the guys from seeing it.
and of course, thank you zw for doing all you can to recover it for me, and its NOT your fault i handed my laptop to you.. it really isnt.. so please stop feeling bad as im feeling worse each time u feel bad, especially in such a time. i saw that you did what u could and selfishly, i was glad that you were there to share this horrible responsibility of losing the laptop of mine, but at the same time, i regret having pulled you into this responsibility circle. so please stop apologizing.

in exchange for the laptop,
i got a book from amily (twilight) which was awesome btw, and i got a cute stuff toy from zw. i knoww.. at this age i shouldnt be going ra-ra about it but thats precisely why i am.haha.these are what made my day less horrible than it could be and helped me through that sleepless night.so merci beaucoup!

there was a moment of unity i saw,
and if losing my laptop can help get me back these friendships,
im willing to lose everything i can lose.




some things just dont end :)