i really do miss those times where we'll just go for random tea
meet for random movies
chill out for whatsoever reason
those were the days
the days that were actually fun to live in

now everyone's caught up with their lives
busy with new found friends
busy with their other half
busy with school work
busy with external commitments
busy busy busy busy

the weird thing is
why am i not?

why do i have the time to think about ..
what movie to watch
who to ask for tea
when to meet up for dinner
where to go for next outing etc.

but i know
its not you people who are the abnormal ones
I AM

im obviously stuck in this trap of living in the past
where time willingly stops for me
and this so reminds me of the year when i was 19
refusing so much to grow up

and even when i know consciously that time can never stop now
i subconsciously hope it does

and i wish sometimes
just sometimes..
that we were still the same old single, poor, heck-care kids
where friends were everything in our small little insignificant world
albeit pathetic

but whos to say that we aren't the tiniest bit pathetic now?

i dont want to grow up
i really dont.

why do we even have to?
who fucking made that rule?
cause i so hate you right now

:(