school's so urgent and packed and forceful! oh gosh, now times creeping up on me, seeing all the people graduating, im more pressed than ever to plan THE NEXT BIG STEP. and so.. after some research i realised the minimum requirement to apply for graduate studies overseas is 2nd UPPER, which was where I WAS but not where I AM.
so in short,
my life just sucks.
so in retrospect, i realised how deep and sad this blog has becomed, intentionally or not.Im not sure since when, all my emotions came down to being nearly merely negative. Truths are not meant to be uncovered, seriously.. they are too sad to know, who wants to live so realistically?
if i can only not stop thinking, stop deducing, stop looking, stop speculating, then again, am i merely speculating?
how do i say, but times have changed.
i am no longer the same, so is the world. only now, i feel like im in another part of the equation. i cant see what i used to see, i cant feel what i used to feel, i cant be a part of the equation anymore. and yet, the longing to belong to this equation is there, so strong a desire i cant brush it off.
the silence is deafening, and i cant see peace.
